Dreaming

Living life in the memory, and never looking on the bright side, why is every second a nightmare, why is there no place to hide

Its been so long that I’m not sure what I feel
I’ve had enough of this stupid ordeal
I’m just too tired to go on
Just a matter of time before I say so long
But before I go I got something to say
That every day that I thought if you
I knew that I would see it through
Now you sent me away, and I fade to black
The only person that was watching your back
Im too stupid to see that it was worthless
And I drown myself in my pane
Now you see that ive gone insane
so you take advantage of me
You pull my heart strings once more
And I stumble out the door
On the pavement I wonder if it was a mistake
But I guess that’s just the risk you take

The flame inside has been dead for so long,
the ashes blow away as I sing this song
Death overtakes my soul, it just leaves this empty hole
For the tears for the years that have passed
Just for the nightmare of when I cared

So many ways to spend this time
I choose to keep my face in the dirt and grime
Hope comes at a price
And Ive already paid that fee twice
So I just constantly wander
Looking for someone to set me free
But theres no one here as far as I can see
Tomorrow wont hold much better
Just more paper for the shredder
Sorry I just cant do this
Somehow I have to get through it
So tired of eating shit

The wave crashes into to the shoreline,
for a minute my heart is frozen in time
Then it disappears like normal,
guess its just a passing thing
Maybe breathing is a good thing
but from my point of view its not such a blessing
death would keep me from obsessing